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If
I were to tell you how I write it would be like describing
the formula of a tragic love storythe excitement of
the first meeting (the conception of the idea), the first
kiss (beginning of the actual writing), the relationship
(the passion and struggle of making the book, sentence by
sentence, page by page), and the inevitable destruction
of the romance (the ending words of the book and the book
then lost to its maker forever). This metaphor would be
true whether I was writing a tragedy or a comedy. It would
also not be true because writing a book is not as sure and
known a quantity as a classic tragic love affairnot
my books, anyway, or my peculiar meandering process of writing.
I believe a book is made up of the moments we spend looking
around at our strange and eclectic world and that these
moments of seeing are a kind of reading which is the real
book of every writer—the one she must read in order
to write herself. The writing of individual books is actually
tangential to the true book, which is a form of touching
with the senses upon every inch of the everything
that is. As I write this I am aware of the waves (I am at
the sea), Greek music on the radio in the background, the
restaurant cat rubbing up against my legs as he begs for
food, the quality of the late afternoon light, and the high
pitched little girl whines of the Americans at the table
to my left. These will all, whether I like it or not, find
their way into the book I am writing at the time, (though
most often in heavy disguise or denial). It cant be
helpedthey are the fabric of my writing space. But
most ofall and this is what draws me to writingI
am aware of the soft firmness of the keyboard beneath the
fingertips and the excitement and curiosity I feel at what
might come out of my hands and this boardwhat surprises,
what things I do not know, what transformations of all that
I sense in the immediate world around me.
I believe books are
made up of minutes of acute awareness and so, each book
is a book of moments. The book of moments is created in
timethe minute by minute tapping of fingers on a keyboardand
out of timethe world of the deep-mind, which has no
sense of hours and minutes. Each time I write a book, a
play, an essay, the work is dependent on two things:
- Seeing an image or an idea or a sound and
- Stopping everything I am doing it to give
it my full attention.
Each moment is filled with
such images that are sparks of wonder. They can either be
passed over or attended to. Thats the only real decision
that an artist ever makeslisten up or ignore. Art
comes from the moment-to-moment attention paid to vision
and its patient transcription and/or transformation by the
viewer. Some days it's almost impossible for me to move
rationally through the day or to get anything done, including
writing, because I am experiencing such an explosion of
sight. Seeing is what makes me crazy to create; it can also
make for serious attention deficit disorder. To be entranced
or enchanted by sight, like love, can make it impossible
to get anything done.
I see a white day lily
growing out of a cracked white clay pot and my mind like
a camera flashes the image into me, as if I am inside the
lens of the camera. And there the image physically seems
to explode. There is such an urgency to this sensation of
upheaval that the scattered bits of the original vision
must find their way back out again or destroy me; and that
journey out is the making of story. The image once exploded
within must out and that is the reason for the urgent fingers
upon a keyboard and the books that will come from image
after image piled up, encircled by the artifice of form
that gives them a structured garden to live in and flourish.
The first lesson a writer learns is that once the image
is absorbed in the way I am alluding to, it cannot be disregarded,
passed by like any number of things we pass by each day
so we can get on with our lives. If we ignore these signs,
therein lie frustration, bleakness, terrible anguish and
probable paralysis for the writer.
The separate images,
fragments, sounds, snatches of conversation of each day
we are alive form a mosaica journey map that manifests
itself through me, the writer, as the elements of story.
To another artist, the transformation of impressions might
manifest itself as a dance or a musical composition or a
painting. In the process of alchemy all artists share a
common cauldron called life. But how we mix it up, is a
matter of wild differences which has always amazed me because
our toolspaint or paper or bodies in the airare
really quite finite as is the time in our lives we have
to do our work. As it is, I often feel that I am not so
much writing as painting. Letters, words, sentences, paragraphs,
chapters! These are my colors, my textures, my brush strokes
echoing the moments of sight.
Moment: Man moves round
white table off a beach as white sea gull flies off from
a cliff at the same time.
The intersection of
these two unrelated events creates the hole which human
imagination, in its quest for connectedness, attempts to
fill in. The machinations of this drive to make sense, to
derive causality between gull and man lifting table, not
to mention the common color white, is the root of story
telling. The double image of bird and man and their propstable
and cliffcreate movement or action, which is the raison
etre for story. In certain stories, especially those built
of the mosaic of moments, it is hard to distinguish landscape
from action, character from environment, music of language
from the arc of meaning of the story. This is because such
story telling is based on the natural phenomena of the web
formation which is really a series of interconnected spirals
or labyrinths. A writer envisioning in this manner is replicating
the journey of the hero (herself a human spiral of double-helixed
DNA), who follows the rocky road of the maze; in this case
said maze is an obstacle course of characters, images, philosophies,
songs and possibly even apple pie recipes. A writer writing
in this manner is in love with lifes riddles and would
sooner have a new one to solve than have the answers to
those already set before her.
I write to discover
things I dont know. For me writing is a kind of reading,
as I have said, of momentsthose chosen moments when
one stops the action of real life to see deeply into something.
Writing then becomes its twinthat is reading, which
is a form of seeing that stops time and life to turn them
into another kind of time and lifethat of the imagination.
Artists tend to read nature, read humanity, read the divine
as if they were books. When I read this book of life, I
am drawn to put my interpretations and my reactions down
in words and so another book is written out of the life
book seen and absorbed, exploded within the writers
body and poured back out into the creation of a new book
that I happen to call mine.
My books settled comfortably
on a shelf always unnerve me. They never seem real and I
surmise that probably they are not. The real book is invisiblethe
book of moments that has a thousand titles and a thousand
stories, some written, most merely dreamed while walking
down a street and seeing-in-passing a day lily in a cracked
flower pot waiting to be read. 
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