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She bled him like new family
tends to do, quickly and violently. His money went firstit drew
herand his time soon followed. He became accustomed to waking when
the clock was bright in the darkness.
This time she was after
some firewood. He stood in the dark with his arms close to his chest.
His truck idled nearby like a devoted horse ready for a quick getaway.
The exhaust pipe fashioned shapes of cold steam in the night.
Ive got no
wood, she complained. That Jen, she stole it all. While I
was in town at work, I think. Just like her to do that.
She kicked at wood shavings
on the porch. She does this sorta thing all the time.
He didnt ask what
she expected him to do. She would tell him soon enough. And she did.
I want you to go
up there, she said, pointing at the tangle of forest that crowned
the short hills beside her mobile home. Theres some old trees
there, fallin apart and broken down. You can cut those.
You got an axe?
he asked her.
She stared dumbly at
him. No. I thought youd bring one.
You didnt
tell me you wanted firewood.
I figured you had
one in your truck.
Why would I carry
an axe in my truck?
She sighed and a mist
blossomed from her lips. Because, she said. Thats
what men carry in their trucks.
His brow creased and
he kicked at the tire of his truck. Ill have to go home and
get one if you dont have one, he said. He opened the door
and made to climb in.
Wait.
She was standing in her
bathrobe, an old patchwork thing shot full of holes. He could see patches
of pale skin beneath it, dry in the night air.
She thumbed over her
shoulder at the screen door. Its real cold in there without
wood. Let me come with?
Before he could answer,
she was in the truck cab. His breath rushed out. She picked at her nails
as he climbed inside.
She talked for the duration
of the trip. He was used to her voice by now. Sometimes he thought he
heard his sister-in-laws voice more than he heard his wifes.
He was mixing them up, slowly and unintentionally.
While they drove she
banged on his dashboard periodically. Heater dont work,
he would say, and she would bang on it harder, just in case.
When she moved close
to him on the vinyl bench seat, they both pretended it was because of
the cold. But there was no reason for her hand to rest on his, and he
felt a very small thrill rock him.
They continued to talkrather,
she didand he listened, for the first time, to what she had to say.
He began to decipher loneliness in the simplicity of her sentences. In
the wistful arrogance of her words he detected the injustices that had
been exacted upon her. Though she was talking about the politics of the
supermarket bank branch that she worked at, he learned that she had never
gotten over the sudden departure of her only husband many years ago. He
came to know her through banality.
He turned the truck off
into the long drive that led to his small home. A light burned in the
window. Katy was up, then. He wondered how she would take to this new
episode. She had been as upset by the constant pleading as he hadsometimes
more, in fact. She would erupt if she answered the phone and it was, once
again, Helen calling.
Helens hand slid
off of his knee as the house grew larger in the windshield, and she moved
toward the passenger door.
Ill just
be a moment, he said, jamming the transmission into neutral, yanking
the parking brake, and opening the door.
Helen nodded. He closed
the trucks door and when he looked at her through the frost on the
window a smile appeared in her eyes. He returned the smile, then turned
for the house.
Katy was standing in front
of the fireplace.
She called again,
didnt she, Katy said. I knew it. I woke up and you were
gone and you didnt even hang the phone up right, so that stupid
ee-ee-ee woke me, and I knew she had called again. She did, didnt
she.
He nodded. Jen
apparently took all of her firewood.
You cut more for
her? Katy asked.
No. I came back
for the axe.
I dont want
you to go.
He looked down at the
floor. I have to. Shell freeze out there without her woodstove.
You know that.
Dont go.
Shell be fine. She will.
Katy
Look, Ill
call her up and tell her you had a flat tire or something. Or Ill
just tell her to leave us alone. Katy gripped his upper arm with
her hands. Please, let me. I dont want you to go.
He saw in his wifes
annoyance a hint of fear.
Ill be home
in just a few minutes. Two cords of wood, Katy, thats all.
As her features went slack, he said, Why dont you brew up
some coffee? Well drink it in front of the fire when I get back.
She nodded and let go
reluctantly. He kissed her cheek, then picked the axe up from its place
beside the stack of wood next to the fireplace and went to the door.
Be fast,
Katy said, and she kissed him hard.
Ill be home
before Im gone, he said, and they smiled against each others
lips.
Katy watched him disappear
into the yard. When he opened the truck door, the light showed Helen there,
forlorn and distant, and the change in Helens face just before he
closed the door.
The headlights illuminated
the frost on leafless trees as the pickup bumped away from the house.
Katy watched until they disappeared behind the ridge. When all was black,
she went to bed, moving her body into the place where his had been, and
let the fire burn itself out.
Jason
Gurley, 23, is the author of Close Program: Stories (Pixel
Press, 2001) and the former publisher of the literary journal Deeply
Shallow. He lives in Reno, Nevada, and is working on his fourth novel.
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