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Bruce Taylor is the author of five chapbooks
of poetry, including This Day, from Juniper Press. He is editor
of seven anthologies including Eating the Menu: A Contemporary American
Poetry (W.C. Brown), the UPRIVER series of Wisconsin Poetry and Prose,
Wisconsin Poetry, (Wisconsin Academy of Sciences, Arts, and Letters)
and, with Patti See, Higher Learning, (Prentice Hall,) 2001 His
poetry and translations have appeared in such places as The Chicago
Review, The Exquisite Corpse, The Formalist, Light, The Literary Review,
The Nation, Nerve, The New York Quarterly, The Northwest Review, Poetry
and The Texas Review. Taylor has won awards and Fellowships the
Wisconsin Arts Board, Fulbright-Hayes, the National Endowment for the
Arts, the National Endowment for the Humanities and the Bush Artist Foundation.
His most recent project is an in-progress collection of short fiction,
"Story IS," from which this piece has been taken.
He may be contacted at taylorb@uwec.edu.
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He liked to let her get there before he
did, not bad advice whenever you are dealing with women. He knew she
dwelled on the anticipation, and the down time after feeding her family.
She liked as well the pseudo-Honky-Tonk ambience and she loved the chance
to work in her journal in a hand so tiny and tight if she could not
have got the Lords Prayer on the head of a pin, she could have
got, at least, the most important parts.
He liked how his eyes
would find her fast through the clots of local softball teams and bowling
leagues in their post game reveries or regrets. Clusters of young families
at a lateish burger and fries before going home to watch the videos
they rented, after some discussion, together. And the occasional stranger,
always at the bend of the bar, staring straight ahead not even slightly
up to where the TV plays its news or noise of that not very particular
night.
By now in every bar
on the street, everyone knew what they drank, knew exactly which day
of the week it was by where they sat, in which dark booth indiscrete
laughing loud, heads thrown back under the neon halos' stridulated afterglows.
Neither could remember
whose idea it was to do "Favorite Parts," but both agreed as soon as
they started that it was brilliant. Not ever the very first moments
but often not soon nor often enough, after they had settled in to whatever
local bar was theirs at the timeher beer and his bourbon, his
Camels and her Old Golds, their ashtray all laid out in the necessary
geometry, his seat scooted up so she could see his eyes, hers angled
so her hair caught the the light in the mirror and gave it back. Then
they would begin to say what they particularly liked the best the last
time they made love.
Understatement is where
they usually began: this or that was 'pretty good,' or 'OK,' or 'better
than a sharp stick in your eye'. But eventually their belief in little
else but a good story and concrete details won out.
She had yelped or tried
not to. He had crooned her name in her ear, or meant to. She had shivered
in the way he always wanted a woman to; he made noises she never would
have imagined he would, nearly girlish. Once Cream was on the
radio and she mentioned she had never had an orgasm to Cream before,
then did, and did again. He waited until she was done and said he thought
that was probably the real reason the band had broken up.
Maybe he almost left
with his underwear on backwards or her without her bra at all. Maybe
his wife drove by the bar just after they got inside or her husband
bought the cover she had for being where she was, when, and with whom,
again. "What are the odds," theyd laugh knowing they
had beaten them, again.
Story was once when
they were out of town together at some Friday afternoon Fish Fry in
a placeno kiddingcalled Joes, they
nearly got busted by her boss. Story is she donned a paper napkin babushka,
he a pocket comb mustache, duked the waitress a twenty and said to her
what he later claimed he had been living his whole life to say, "Hey
Baby, is there a back way out of here?"
Story got to be they
fled through the kitchen of the Chinese restaurant next door, out through
the crackle of duck fat frying, raised cleavers and Mandarin curses,
to the parking lot on the other side of the strip mall and back to the
motel they did not leave for the whole next day, nor needed to.
They thought of themselves
as lovers in that stark Continental sense, not your standard American
varietyballing behind the bowling alley, diddling in the doughnut
shop parking lot. After all she had modeled underwear for a Farm
& Fleet catalogue. He had held for field goals on a high school
team that nearly made it to State. She was the free-throw champ for
Holy Ghost High.
They had their own
digsan odd sort of time-share apartment with a Lisa Minelli impersonator
whose day job was at Starbucks. They had a huge purple scented candle,
a cheap boom-box and too many unlabeled tapes to know what they were
putting on when they were in a hurry or even when they were not. They
made tapes for each other the way that lovers do, a sound track of their
longing, absolutely unique in its own generic way.
Ivory
Joe Hunter said his baby "could mambo in a telephone booth."
Ray Charles had a women "way across town." There was Stella
by Starlight, Nancy with the Laughing Face, there were many Marias
and O Carols, and Glorias. Thats what he thought.
When Joe Cocker sang, "You
can leave your hat on," or "She climbed in through the bathroom
window," or LaVerne Baker did Jim Dandy to the Rescue, or Tiwedlidum
Tiwedlidee, that seemed about right to her.
Many of the tapes were labeled
FAV" with a number after it, say 1 or 23. One said "Songs
About Dancing," his tape for her, during that stage when he wanted
her to dance with him but she wouldnt. "Marry me," shed
toss out of the side of her mouth and exhale an Old Gold at the same
time. He never knew how cynically and never would until he did.
Other tapes were called
something like "Old Timers" or "My Make Out Songs,"
both hers. So he seduced her to Sinatra; so she said, "You so have
to listen to some Bonnie Raitt." He countered with Tom Waitsthe
middle period, say Nighthawks at the Diner to The Ghosts of
Saturday Nights. She nearly finished him off with Etta James, Lucinda
Williams and Blossom Dearie.
In their apartment
they also had a miniature Superman action-figure withneither of
them could remember whyan unusedthey both assumedBreathe-Right
strip strapped around its middle like some bloated cummerbund. Our hero
impaled crotch-wise upon a random previously existing nail. And there
was an even more Penguinish than one would imagine little wind-up Nun
that sparkedSister Sparky in factas it lurched across the
cardboard box bedside table covered with some bright cloth.
They had three dozen
wash-cloths and two towels, a pen leashed to the cord of a dingy mini-blind.
There was a clock that was not theirs with numbers so big they could
both see it from across the room even without their glasses on. And
the occasional stranger condom too, or half bottle of wine they would
never drink, a magazine they might perhaps read together but rarely
had the time to.
"Parts is parts," they'd
say, mimicking an old television commercial but knowing that if this
was not an epiphany it was the waiting room to one. "The fish in the
sea is not thirsty," he said, quoting Kabir. "Have you ever noticed,"
she replied, "on Gilligan's Island, some people escape
but never send help."
Her grade school science
project was on lightningDangerous and Exciting!!!his
was on hair. Lately they lie in bed and discuss whose stomach was growling.
Hes had as many wives as shes had lovers.
Neither of them thinks
this can go on but knows that it will.
Both of them knew but
did not talk about how each knew the other was both the worst and the
best they needed in their lives right now, the steady hunger for the
other, the thirst they shared.
Story was they often had
to wait for what felt like forever, sometimes they didn't wait to take
off their shoes. To them a phone booth was a grotto, a dark park bench
the anteroom to the Cave of Lights or Juliet's tomb. Theyd smoke
endless cigarettes together or apart. Theyd stand side by side
with fists in their pockets at the edge of a thin Islamic moon.
Both, they swear to
each other repeatedly, would have left respectively their spouses by
now if they hadnt found each other.
The next stage, after
they were well into it, seemed a natural, "Future Favorite Parts,"
what they would do and in what order the next time they were togethera
script, a menu, it wasnt a promise exactlythey were way
beyond thatmore just like the way you think youll wake up
every morning, how you expect a day will be because if youre small
and very lucky it usually is.
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